Wednesday, November 11, 2009



So I have one week til Elder Harris gets home! ONE WEEK! Can you believe it?! Not gonna lie, this month has been the SLOWEST month of my life! Oh my gosh! Dramatic? Yes! Why? Cause the moment I see him, the time I get to spend with him, EVERYTHING!!! It determines my future! MY FUTURE! The moment I see him is basically the thing I've thought about most the past 2 years!

I'm not quite sure how to get my thoughts out of my head to make them make sense to anyone, even myself. There are so many things I think about.

I remember so vividly the day he left, the day my life changed, the day I started having my relationship with him thru paper and emails. In a way it was perfect. We'd prepared ourselves together for that day. Have we prepared ourselves (not necessarily in the same way) to meet again? Will it have that same sense of 'perfect' as when he left? Our relationship can once again go back to face-to-face!

Face-to-face sounds like the greatest thing I've heard of in a long time. But, will we pick up where we left off? Will he be weird? Better yet, will he think I'm weird or different from before? I play in my mind how I think our 'moment' will be, but how will it really be? I know he's changed and I've changed but how exactly? Sorry for the question overload! Should have cautioned you... Too many things in my head I tell ya! I know I'll come back to this post later and think about why I even had these thoughts. Funny, but what can I say?!

On a different note my life has seemed to already change in the last week. I can't really tell you why, but it has. I think it's a good change.

*I've prayed and pondered much.

* I go to bed early- like 9:30 or 10:00. Don't call me a loser cause I already know I am haha! Maybe this isn't good or bad but in my head I just tell myself that 'the earlier I go to be the faster the next day will come.' Which means...da da da... one more day down!

* I watch the clock.. ok a bad change! (FYI I never recommend this)

*I am excited! Not nervous! The nervousness of it all is gone!!! Amazing feeling!

*I got my hair dyed! Gotta look good, right?!

*Maybe this isn't a way of preparation, but last week I went shopping! I finished getting Elder Harris' bday presents and I got an outfit for the day he gets home :D (pics to come)

So maybe all my preparations are good... Maybe I don't really know how to prepare, I'm not gonna lie. I guess all I gotta do right now is remain composed ;) wish me luck on that one!

Happy Note: Yesterday as I read Elder Harris' email it kinda hit me that this is actually happening! Whoa!


Whitney said...

I'm so excited for you! I hope everything turns out just how you want it. I can't wait to see pics.


JD & Whitney said...

oh my heck! I can't believe how soon you get to see him! I'm way excited for you. You are not a loser for going to bed at 9:30. Sometimes I'm in bed and asleep at 8. lol I'm a freakin old-no-social-life lady. No matter how it all plays out, it will be for the best.

Kaylen said...

love you girl! absorb every second!